An Award and an Update

First, the award. I love Sharon so much, because she's always so sweet and encouraging, she noticed that I hadn't blogged in a while and checked in on me to make sure I was okay, and she has given me an award for the second time (even though I'm totally undeserving because I haven't blogged in who knows how long). Actually, so far she's the only person who's ever given me an award! That just makes me love you even more, Sharon! Thanks! According to Sharron, I am a bodacious blogger.



Now, for my update. I was going to go into some pitiful excuse about why I haven't been blogging lately, but I realize it's not necessary. I'm a busy gal, and there aint nothin' I can do about it (notice how I talk more "down to earth" when I'm making a point). I love writing, making "blog friends", and just blogging in general. I wish I had time to do it every day! But unfortunately, I have too many other things in my life that take priority -- and I don't even have any kids yet! As much as I would love to have one of those "famous" blogs that tons of people visit and comment on every day, I don't have the time to make it happen, and that's okay with me. I'm happy with the blog friends I've made so far, and I know my family and those true blog friends of mine don't mind if I go awhile without posting.

As many of you already know, I've been trying to live a more healthy lifestyle and get off all of those darn pills I was taking (I blogged about it here). God's been good to me. I went off the birth control pills, and low and behold, my face didn't become a disgusting sea of acne. I'm in the process of weaning off the antidepressant I was taking for generalized anxiety disorder called Lexapro. I promise you all, soon I will post about the scary, but ultimately enlightening, road I've been down with anxiety, fear, panic, and insomnia (trust me, I have a lot to write about). I'm not quite ready to do it yet, though. I am weaning off the Lexapro very slowly, and I am replacing that little white pill with DAILY exercise. And I don't just mean a little walk around the block. I go to that gym and SWEAT that anxiety out of me! I also gave up coffee, which is taking some getting used to (I know, it's hard to believe). I am not going to even attempt going off of my sleeping pill (Trazadone) without the supervision of a doctor, and after I have been completely off the Lexapro for some time and my body has adjusted. Jesus is walking with me on this one, and my husband has been so supportive. If I have an anxious night and I can't sleep, he willingly doesn't sleep either. We pray and make a party of it by watching TV, or he reads the Bible to me. I am so thankful for my friends and family who are praying for me to be set free of all of this! Please pray, I need all the help I can get! Let me quickly make a little disclaimer and say that I do believe that some people really do NEED to be on the kind of medication I've been describing, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that as long as you are doing other things like praying, exercising, and eating healthily (in other words, not solely relying on medication to fix your problems). However, I am praying that I am not one of those people that needs to be on this stuff forever!

So, believe it or not, everything that I've just mentioned has left me exhausted and without energy for blogging. I don't get it -- for once I'm actually doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, and I'm absolutely exhausted! I workout every day, I don't drink coffee, I make home cooked meals once or twice a week (pictures of my fabulous meatloaf are coming soon), I study my Chinese, and I only work about 15 hours a week. Why am I so tired? I have so many interesting things that I want to tell all of you, but I'm too busy doing all of these fun but time-consuming things. And now my husband's home and I want to spend time with him and find out how his day was. Bye for now! I'll be back ... I promise!